Three Months Notice!!!

                                   

 That’s the end of my productive days in that atmosphere of “future aspirants”. 

Don’t think that it is because my boss has asked me to “take rest permanently” when I asked for a prior intimation of my summer vacation or because I was upset on my inability for “cooking” up. Yes cooking delicious cuisines is something which is favorite to me but I am sorry that is not my topic of discussion with you now.  I am not wasting your time talking about my talents in the kitchen but of something spicy!!

The talents of those who were with me all these years from the beginning of my career and with whose influence I am ‘transformed’ now.

I had the golden opportunity to witness the 'special skill' of my dear colleagues especially my nearest colleague who feels herself ‘as old as an Egyptian mummy’ (so I take this opportunity to call her by the same name with your permission). You have to keep in mind that all her ‘acting talents brought her ‘expected’ or ‘unexpected’ success (I don’t know which is more apt). I feel so humble to remember her at this moment as she was such a talented professional and wish I could at least possess one percent of her skills!

My passionate teaching profession seemed to have tasted a bitter gourd at this moment. I feel disappointed for wasting my money buying Kerala chips whenever I go for a leave, or birthday cards or flowers to become a good shepherd, but what I got was only his warnings in the end!! The routine exercise failed miserably and helped only to make my boss more negligent to my dedication. I turned weak physically and mentally due to his frequent attacks.

I never searched for that brand of perfume mummy used to apply or those transparent yellow blouses which she wore when she went to meet him. I never had enough secretion in my tear glands to waste also [i feel already wasted much]. Else I would have received all special benefits like extra increments and permission to use the a/c seminar hall and chances for visiting the University for the much valued ‘Valuation’!!

You know how to expose the beautiful thirty two white buds inside your mouth to bring to the notice of all the dull mouthed dumb heads around you? That too not for winning a smiling contest, but to give the impression to others that you love them extremely and you are the most loyal friend.

Only if we develop to balance both instincts -real and artificial- we can deal with two distinct varieties of people. Yes, I mean the sleep walkers and those who lost sleep forever!!

You know, finally I learned that, what matters most is not what I have learned through books all these years, but what I forgot to notice (Unfortunately books didn’t give lessons to ‘act’ but only to ‘react’). Hey world has changed overnight and I could not catch up to that development too!! Yes it must be true I was dreaming to fly high in the upper layers of acceptance and finally ended up floating in the deep sea with only broken wings.

Last ten years I have been cracking the hard nut which never was broken.

 Don’t think teaching was a past time for me. None of the guru’s I had seen working with me were the ‘masters’ of knowledge but only of something else.  Staff rooms were the ‘sacred storehouses’ of grudge and greed and gossips. The time was never sufficient for ‘us’ to complete cross-checking of the whereabouts of our disciples and their link-ups and downs.

Who would be able to understand the meaning of silence I conveyed during this entire mess! 

Once in the beginning of my career I got an advice from one of my previous bosses that only a happy mind can work with complete dedication. I don’t know if he had indirectly hinted me or that was a general suggestion. Anyway I felt sorry for not being able to keep myself mentally fit during those days. He wanted me to behave in a way which gave no room for speculations to anyone when I was given any special assignments like writing a news report or writing a caption which according to him was a talent I possessed!! Anyway I got a success mantra from that experience. But unfortunately there too I had failed miserably. Neither I succeeded to enter in their good books nor did it help me to ease the tension between me and my fellow mates.  Manipulating works went well there and their skills got acclaim with my change of workplace.

Being, perfect, hardworking and non bothering attitude will gain you only ‘masters’ and I can thus proudly say I am so rich with many now. 

So get proper training in some extra talents. Acting is a wonderful talent. Acting skill will help you sometimes to gain an increment, a promotion and above all life-long companions and thus permanent happiness and of course you will have a better life and a much better HALF. Acting makes you to appear as a sincere and dutiful and pleasant employee, and also you can come up as a worthy individual! You need not waste your time in telling and re-telling the truths.

Next I want you to be aware of the necessity of developing an immune system. Don’t mistake me I am not endorsing any brand of medicine. Immunity for the mind is what I meant. It is to be developed in an atmosphere of in humanness  You need to have an active defense mechanism to resist the unexpected attacks of people who never tried to be humane and human too.

 Follow the ‘latest trend’. PRETEND!

 Follow Gandhi’s non violence. Appear calm. Emotionless.

Don’t try to be a ‘jihadi’ which can only get you a change of profile or work place not an olive branch, of course. 

You have to keep safely inside, the Buddhas, Vivekanandas, mother Theresas, or the ‘child-is the father of man’ Wordsworthian dilemmas without bringing into anybody’s notice, as saints and spirituality is needed only in shrines and in ashrams not in our modern-day work place.

So for curing the damage created to my soul by the activisms outside I decided to take rest for a while and thus given three months notice. Yes I am indirectly following the advice of my boss for my well being.

 No one can stop the crippled system of life being artificial.  So I am rigorously preparing to come back to the war-front with a safety mask after tuning my acting skills.